So in the last week I had a weird coincidence happen. As many of you seen I have kinda been quite public about my struggles, well someone from my past contacted me. My first girlfriend contacted me – I have not really talked to her much in over two years. She told me shes pregnant and was raped. I know she knows about the stuff between Kate and I, so maybe the struggles I’m going through God is using to help someone else. God has a weird way of using things, huh?
It was kinda neat too, because my first girlfriend told me something – she can tell how much I really do love Katelyn, and shes happy I found true love. I just hope Kate and I can work it out still.
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“It was kinda neat too, because my first girlfriend told me something – she can tell how much I really do love Katelyn, and shes happy I found true love. I just hope Kate and I can work it out still.”
Well, nobody likes to go through loads and loads of crap for no reason; and – I’m not a believer in any god (but I know that you are) – it is often our own experiences that we end up using to help others to come to terms with their experiences. If you make sense of it by believing that your God is using this set of circumstances in a way that helps another person to understand and survive their experiences, then I’d say go for it. Because it is basic human nature to try to find reasons for the things that happen in our worlds. And if, by believing as you do, you get a greater understanding for yourself, then that’s a good thing, right? And making sense of things is a sign that you’re using your “rational head”, rather than the “emotive head”… and this is a step forward in your coming back out of emotional turmoil.
I’m pleased for you that your first girlfriend called you; it seems to have put a few things into perspective for you. And also for her, too.
As for you and Katelyn… my suggestion would be to prepare for the worst but hope against all odds for the outcome you want. It may not take long, and it may in fact take a long time; but prep for worst and hope for best.
I’m hoping that you can be together again, both of you, getting exactly the support you both need – as a couple – starting out with a family*. That’s what I’d say would be the best outcome. And that should be the primary aim of the support personnel around you and around Katelyn. Because people have rights to choose, and those choices ought to be respected.
Principle of equifinality here: however that manages to happen, do remember that there are many ways for it to happen – many courses of events by which it can come about, and some take longer and some not so long. Key word here: Patience
(Pulled from a film called That Thing You Do!: Luke 21:19)
All the best, Zack. I mean it.
While I’m very sorry for what your first girlfriend is going through, and what you are going through, I’m glad it seems that you were able to help each other in some way.
Sometimes strange concindences provide the greatest healing. Strangely enough, it was after my dad died and I had lost the only one tha ttruly understood me in my family that my guy, also named Zack, came along! And the oddest thing is, he has alot of my dad’s traits! Along with his brilliant mind.
I know you are a christian man, and I was listening to something interesting the other day Zach that might lift you up. They were talking about one of my heros, Mother Teresa on the radio. They were talking about when she was having her time of doubt, not being able to feel the Lord’s presence in her life.
Even when out in the slums of India while she was doing his work, she felt little love from those around her, and she kept praying, kept holding on to that belief that “I believe in God, even when he is silent” and made it through what she has called The Dark Night of the Soul.
How? By continuing the work she felt she was called too. That inspite of feeling God’s absense, she continued on in His name to take care of “the least of these”.
I share this with you because I think you too are in The Dark Night of the Soul. And she is a wonderful example on how to push forward, to continue to fight, and knowing that even when you can’t see it, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
*hug*