Today I did something I felt I had to do, make three videos I hope will never be seen as well as send a friend instructions I hope she never has to follow. I made three videos, one for my daughter, one for Katelyn and one for her parents in case I attempt suicide and succeed (or fail depending on how you look at it). I wanted my daughter to know that I love her and that its not her fault. I want Katelyn to know I really did love her, respect her, and cherish her. I wanted her to know I’m sorry for what I did why I was ill, and that I understand why she has left me. I made a video for Katelyn’s parents apologizing to them about this whole mess.
I also sent instructions to a close friend on how I want my funeral and where and what I want done with my property.
Oddly enough this does not scare me, it relieves me. Please don’t think I’m thinking about suicide – I’m just facing the facts that I’ve lost the love of my life because I was ill, and am loosing my daughter basically the two most important things to me on the planet. As her birth gets closer its going to be harder and harder.
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ixna noa heta ideosva.
If you are an example of sane, Mr Best, we will stay insane thank you.
GET LOST, BEST!!!
Oh, the joy of knowing there’ll be no more of this!
Nice one, Zack!