Lately Kate has been going through a breakdown and its so painful to watch. Now I know what its like from the other side of the fence.When I was breaking down earlier this year after I lost my job and things starting sliding with other things in my life Kate was at my side the whole time. She often shared how painful it was to be there at my side – I said some horrible things to her when I was loosing it.
Right now Katelyn is breaking down. Shes struggling with depression, shes in an AFC, can’t see her mother or me right now, her mother and I are often going at it – so basically she can’t see the two most important people in her life, who are going at it with each other.
So sometimes she says horrible things to me, last night she called me a jerk because I was upset she lied to me. Then she broke up with me, and I did something horrible – I ran. I’m learning how painful it is to be there with someone who is depressed and hurting, but how much they need me to be there – and how much I need to be there for them as well.
I’m still recovering from my breakdown from this entire mess, so sometimes its so hard for me to listen to her deep in depression saying shes worthless and to say back something that will keep her fighting. Sometimes I have to keep her laughing when I can not laugh myself.
People often wonder why I love Katelyn through all this mess. I can’t really answer that other then to say that you should watch this clip.
I hope this help you understand why I’m still there. I’m learning a lot right now, and God is using this mess.
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All of this your going through will seem really stupid and meaningless once you have a child and then you will see all sides and realize what is important in life.
JJ,
Its already starting to hit.