Now Some Good News

Seeing as everything on here has been kinda bad news latley, I thought I should share some good news about the baby, Kate and some other things.

The Baby

Kate has told me when we were hanging out the baby is healthy.  The due date is Febuary 13 2010, which would be one day before our one month anniversary, as well as the day before Valentines Day.  The due date alone makes me think a lot.  Kate has decided she wants to have this child the way God intended for it to be, not knowing the gender before its born – and doing natural birth.  She hopes to have a water birth if she can talk her mother into it.  She feels that feeling the labor and being involved will help her bond with the kid.  I think its kinda nuts – but I will support her in it if she wants.

Mothers intuition on the child is that the child is a girl.  While we were hanging out we decided on the name of the child if it is in fact a girl – Joy Kenitz Lassiter.  She liked my middle name which happens to be the maiden name of my mother, so I explained to her what it came from and she liked the idea of the child having the maiden name of her.  I like it as well, because no matter what happens the child will have part of us always.

Kate

Kate emailed me last night telling me that the adult foster care place she is in is not that bad.  That really put my heart at ease knowing Katelyn is doing alright and in a place she likes.  It appears she has internet available where she is at – so hopefully she can keep in contact with her friends, me and keep her blog going.  I am currently trying to get my case management connected with her case management so this whole mess can be figured out – but for some reason her case manager seems to hate my guts.  I’m willing to bet its because of her mothers accusations about me, but her mother allowed me to talk to her case manager which confuses me.

Church

I have really lost a lot in this whole mess, including my church family.  Today one of the pastors and I talked on the phone – and we are setting up a meeting to discuss what is happening again – in hopes to reconcile.

And Zach

I am doing a lot better.  Knowing Katelyn is liking the place she is at, and that she has access to the internet to communicate with her friends, myself and others really has put my heart at ease.  I’m a bit confused by her mothers actions though – and I hope that she signed the release for Kate’s case manager in the best interest of Kate and not to continue this whole drama.  I’m optimistic, but remain cautious as well.

I have decided to continue with the fire academy, in the very least its something that I can do that provides structure and something to do.  I’m currently waiting for part of my uniform (pants and a belt) to come in via United Package Smashers.  Tonight I get fitted for my pull out gear and get to take that home.  Pictures will be up tonight or tomorrow.  I am not sleeping well again.  I find that I sleep best when Katelyn is cuddled up at my side, but I think part of the reason I don’t sleep well is my fears and uncertainty about the situation.  The nightmares are returning again – and I was up all night last night except for a half hour of sleep.

I have decided to get back on my medications again.  As I don’t have classes this weekend I hope to start tonight and I should be good by class next Tuesday.  I have a good stockpile of food thanks to Katelyn’s mother and don’t need to go anywhere so I won’t have to drive.

But there is one issue.  Katelyn’s case manager is wanting me to pack up Kate’s stuff and bring it to her office – where I last saw Kate.  I’m scared to bring it to her office as I know its going to bring back a lot of things in my head.  Also I’m having problems packing up Kate’s property, as whenever I pack it up my head is flooded with memories and I end up just crying.  I’m currently asking my case manager to see if something else can be arraigned and I can get help packing Kate’s property.

Tagged as: Aspergers, Autism, child, guardianship, Katelyn, Medication, pregnant