I am now broken. Part of me is gone, part of me that I can not replace. The pain, the guilt, the tears just keep getting heavier and heavier. This is the most painful experience in my life, the fact is I don’t think I’m going to get better. This analogy shows my point. Every day that goes the pain just gets greater. The fact that I have lost my lover, my best friend, and my future wife is too much. Add on top of that the pain of loosing my daughter and I don’t know how much more I can take.
While Katelyn was never my wife, she will always be the love of my life. The pain of being broken, missing important parts of you is greater then any pain I have ever felt. The fact is – I lost it, and hurt Katelyn. Now I’ve lost the love of my life, The pain is overwhelming, I cry myself to sleep every night. Its not getting better, just more painful as each minute passes.
I miss my lover, and my best friend.
I can’t take this anymore.
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That is very responsible of you. Very cool.
As I said in another post, my friend true love no matter how impossibvle the odds always finds the way, and all the more so if you have faith. And what is faith? It is a belief in things unseen as of yet, but kept in the heart as fact.
Faith can’t work in these circumstances.
I have already sent her money… I send 20 percent of my income to her to make sure her pregnancy expenses are taken care of.