I Have Fallen

One of the conversations I have been having with myself lately is attempting to define what love is.  What many people don’t realize is there are many different types of love, but there is only one true definition of love.After looking back on all the drama in the relationship I’m in many people claim to believe I’m still in the infatuation stage with Kate.  I think in fact its the exact opposite.  Infatuation would infer that Kate was perfect, never hurt me, and the best thing on the earth since Mountain Dew.  When you can’t spend 2-3 months with someone you really love and you still love them throughout the entire time I think its real love.  When you can’t get angry, even when your almost crippled with hurt and pain that the person caused I think its love.

What Is Love?

I think there is only one big definition on what love is… and to be honest yes this quote is from the bible, but I think its meaning is true whether or not your a Christian, so please just read it.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

I think the above quote highlights where Kate and I went wrong, but also why it is still going to work out.  Back when Kate and I got engaged I knew God told me that Kate would be the one, God even told Kate – and her mother the same thing.  God also told all of us that this would not be an easy relationship, and would involve a lot of work – but I knew it would be worth it, because love is kinda boring and meaningless without the work to get it.

I think Kate and I went wrong because we were both proud, boastful, rude, self-seeking, keeping lists of what each other did wrong, and telling lies.  I think the part that tells us we will get through this is the last sentence, “Love Never Fails.”

The Difficulties

Because of this whole mess a lot of people have been hurt, and a lot of people don’t want to see us work out.  It hurts because Kate and I do truly love each other, and we know even though its going to take a lot of hard work – its going to work out.  Its just difficult because I wish we had the support of our friends and family – which is important.  I feel like the friends that really know Kate and I are being supportive of us, giving their opinions on things even when we disagree on them and helping mentor us other then just ignoring things we say.

Kate and I know we screwed up, we know we hurt a lot of people.  We want to try and make it right, not only with each other but the people around us.  But it seems like no matter what we do, everyone seems to yell that we are doing it wrong.  What should we do? I just wish people would be more supportive of us, and it would make things so much less stressful and easier

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