I’ve had some horrible crap happen to me in the last week, there were a lot of lies told about me, I’ve lost my fiance, my soon to be kid, and my dignity. Its was just too painful so I cut up both arms.As you may have read earlier, my ex was a cutter and I swore to myself I would never did something like that, but I did. To be honest it was just too painful to cope on my own. I don’t know why I did it, I don’t remember much about doing it all I remember is how good it felt to actually physically feel the pain – and then I started freaking out. I couldn’t stop myself and eventually after 2 hours by God’s grace I was discovered still cutting.
My arms are gashed up pretty baddly – the right more so then the left now, and now I can’t wear short sleave shirts in the 90+ degree weather. I have to say its nice to have some amazing friends who don’t ask anything about it unless I mention it. I have some amazing friends who are sticking by my side through all this – and sticking by the truth.
Why Did You?
I remember being so overwhelmed by all the lies that were being said about me, all the abuse that I took from my ex, and being scared everyone would believe her (which it appears thank God no one does). I remember being in so much pain, that my brain was overwhelmed by the pain and then it just started. I remember it felt good to feel the pain physically – so good I could not stop myself.
Do you think there is a connection between Aspergers Syndrome and Cutting?
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I used to injure myself for various reasons in various ways, include cutting. I was unable to express myself in words and didn’t know how I felt, so when I felt especially bad I resorted to self-injury.
You should probably go see a therapists/psychiatrist or something. Sounds like you need professional help beyond your friends.
It also sounds like your girlfriend may have had moderate/severe borderline personality disorder (http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/borderline-personality-disorder-fact-sheet/index.shtml).
Shes no longer my girlfriend – thank God.
I am starting counseling next week.
I’ve never cut, though I do pick at my skin. What I do when I’m overwhelmed is eat food that I know will make me feel sick. I get painful cramps (sometimes I can’t stand up straight) and I bloat up when I eat too much starch. And dairy will also triggers symptoms. I know I’m damaging my gut, but at least it keeps me alive by distracting me for a while.
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We all cut… maybe at our friends, maybe family, maybe our livers.. feels good but does no good. Best to get a lawyer to really cut through the issue. That’s what I’m gonna have to do.
im trying to research Aspergers and cutting as i have borderline personality disorder but i appear to also have Aspergers too (im going for assessment for it in the next couple of mths). i cut when too overwhelmed and stressed (along with hair pulling)
im wanting to know too if cutting can be found in Aspergers.
I remember cutting when I was much younger- over a decade ago.
I have Asperger’s with no borderline. I didn’t cut for many years, but, alas these times
have made me start again within the last fortnight. I thought I was done with
the behaviour, as I am 36. I am even afraid to tell my Therapist.
So many pressures
have come, and, as you may know, we with Autism have much trouble
expressing ourselves in correct manner, and at the correct time. I get in much trouble
for these so-called ‘indescretions’ on my part. Why can’t my husband really come to terms
with what this type of Autism means?
When I feel so much pain, and sometimes, unfortunately, anger, I rather turn it inward, than to scream, yell, and curse, and lose outward control. ‘Tis better to remain poised, and not say hurtful things to the one I love most. Yes, I really am this pedantic