I need to apologize to my readers. I’ve put on a spectacle that was stupid. My private life should never have been made a public spectacle on this blog, but it has been made part of it. Kate was a big part of my life, but I should not have carried on with it on this blog like I did. I guess it was because of my inability to cope with the situation and needing support.
I want to appologize to the Autism Hub, members of Wrong Planet, and all my other readers for turning my blog into a drama pool.
I am now faced what to do with the drama filled posts, do I delete them, censor parts of them, or leave them intact? I would appreciate feedback on this.
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I’m just glad you’re ok…
So am I.
Thanks for your support through this difficult time.
-z
zach – my own honest opinion?
i am an aspie chick… how many honest gritty personal blogs do i find out here speaking raw unfiltered truth abt what we feel and how we process or just cannot process etc?… urs is one of the few voices in the wilderness…
please do not feel bad about ur personal posts… what is life if it cannot be personal?… why shd asperger’s only hv a cold ‘official’ ‘politically correct’ face?
i m having a meltdown now, and ur intensely personal posts hv helped me so much. i always feel, if just one of my works as an artist musician and writer can touch just one heart, it wld all hv been worthwhile… if u feel the same, then u hv touched one… me…
thanks zach… keep going…
another thought: if all we are allowed to speak are filtered, polite niceties with no emotions or personal perspective, then why bother? just submit academic papers at conferences and journal.
u are real… and that is what gives hope… don’t delete ur angsty posts zach…
Point taken.
Yeah, spunkykitty makes good points. It’s healthy to be able to express your feelings openly and honestly without feeling a bit of shame at all.
I am so glad you are o.k..
I think the stream of conciousness posts were good. Unfortunately many on the lower functioning part of the spectrum do not have the same coping skills those of us on the higher end have. My biggest concern is that lower functioning dwellers have, in spite of everything of value you said, and the emotion conveyed that there might be some who choose to follow your lead.
If you are going to share personal experiences, I am much more interested in your experiences with social services performing home invasion and other abusive interventions by those trying to help.
Zach,
If you hadn’t put your turmoil out there, you may have been irreparably damaged – or killed. Shouting out enabled your readers to get help when you were at your lowest.
Leave your posts there because they’ll help other people who are going through the same thing. Also, one day, you’ll want to read through them and remember what you went through.
Just finish your thoughts on your various blogs, threads etc with something that tells us how you had your “epiphany” and what you learned. It might help others to see that things turned out well.
Best of luck – and just remember; Nobody lost respect for you. We all gained respect because you’ve been able to move on. It takes a lot of courage and strength to do that.
I just can’t believe I fell for Kate’s lies and manipulation
I, like everyone, am glad that you are better. I also will go with the general consensus that it is okay to post about your personal life and hardships…actually, seeing how one aspie struggles with their issues might help others aspies. Also, Gavin Bollard makes a good point that posting those kinds of things was likely vital in that people could get help if a suicide post was made. I, and I’m guessing others, have kind of noticed a pattern, it seemed you’d be suicidal, hospitalized, come out stable for what seemed like maybe a day or two, then your posts would start getting less optimistic, and then a suicide post would be made and the cycle would repeat. I think your constant posting of your issues helped people to know when your were going downhill and could try to get you some help, and had you not posted constantly about those issues, I’m not so sure you’d be alive at this point. One thing I and I think others have noticed is that your opinion of Kate’s parents would vary widely depending on your stability. It seems that when you were more stable and thinking more clearly, you saw them as well-intentioned even if you didn’t always agree with their methods. When your opinion of them was that they were horrible people, a suicide note would be imminent, if not already up. While some of the things you’ve posted about certain people (Kate’s parents for example) might not have been something the people in question might have really wanted plastered on the internet, it helped to paint a picture of when you might be in imminent danger and need of help. So not only might your experiences help others, but I suspect your posts may have been one of the only things that has kept you alive.
That said, something that I would recommend removing, if you haven’t already, is personal information about other people that you may have put up while in meltdown. Not necessarily entire posts, but I’d go through and censor out any of that. By personal information about others, I mean things such as when you posted the address/phone number for Katelyn’s AFC location when you discovered it (I could be wrong but you may have actually deleted that post). Or when you’ve posted more personal information about Kate’s parents…not just your frustrations with them, but if you’ve posted addresses/phone numbers associated with them, if that info is still up I’d recommend that be edited out of those posts. So basically, your personal struggles are okay to post. But personally identifying information about other people, especially if they did not consent to it, put on the internet can be problematic.
“By personal information about others, I mean things such as when you posted the address/phone number for Katelyn’s AFC location when you discovered it (I could be wrong but you may have actually deleted that post). Or when you’ve posted more personal information about Kate’s parents…not just your frustrations with them, but if you’ve posted addresses/phone numbers associated with them, if that info is still up I’d recommend that be edited out of those posts. So basically, your personal struggles are okay to post. But personally identifying information about other people, especially if they did not consent to it, put on the internet can be problematic.”
Exactly!
Talking about your own personal struggles and emotions is one thing, making it easier for jerks to stalk other people including your daughter (if she’s at Kate’s or Kate’s parents’ place) is another thing altogether.
I think Katelyn’s guardian needs to be educated on aspergers.
“I think Katelyn’s guardian needs to be educated on aspergers.”
Does Kate have Asperger’s?